The rain is just a pourin' outside today, but WOW, I love the green grass that is coming along with it. And I swear I could sit and watch my daylily's and iris's grow right in front of my eyes!! It's amazing to me how fast the just pop up out of the cold dirt! With all of this life popping up around me, and the one inside me, you would think I should be bursting with excitement.
I've been feeling a little not like myself though the last couple of days, and it truly bothers me. Nothing extreme, and I know what it is for the most part. Melissa, you just posted about losing a friendship, and I have said this before too. I feel like I am losing some really great friends that I've had for like over 10 years! We always have such a great time when we get together, but in the down time, I try and try and try to call, email, text saying "Let's go for a walk....wanna meet for coffee half way...miss ya!" Then either they don't call back or email for like a week and say oh sorry I was busy, or sick, or busy...
I really love these girls, and we have all been through a lot together, and it just feels really sad that it is slipping away. It just is hard when you have no one else to lean on for that inner need of having a good friend. I have my sister, which is a total blessing, because I can talk to her about these things and cry and laugh, but it would also be wonderful to have someone just like me, in the same time frame of life, to vent and laugh with as well. I know that God will provide and I need to be patient, but man...I could really use that fuel for my soul now!! I know, I'm a greedy gal!
Anyway, always feels good to get it out!!
But....I do have my lovely children to hold and love, and that is truly wonderful in itself...
I've been feeling a little not like myself though the last couple of days, and it truly bothers me. Nothing extreme, and I know what it is for the most part. Melissa, you just posted about losing a friendship, and I have said this before too. I feel like I am losing some really great friends that I've had for like over 10 years! We always have such a great time when we get together, but in the down time, I try and try and try to call, email, text saying "Let's go for a walk....wanna meet for coffee half way...miss ya!" Then either they don't call back or email for like a week and say oh sorry I was busy, or sick, or busy...
I really love these girls, and we have all been through a lot together, and it just feels really sad that it is slipping away. It just is hard when you have no one else to lean on for that inner need of having a good friend. I have my sister, which is a total blessing, because I can talk to her about these things and cry and laugh, but it would also be wonderful to have someone just like me, in the same time frame of life, to vent and laugh with as well. I know that God will provide and I need to be patient, but man...I could really use that fuel for my soul now!! I know, I'm a greedy gal!
Anyway, always feels good to get it out!!
But....I do have my lovely children to hold and love, and that is truly wonderful in itself...
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