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So, I really need to start screen or filtering my emotions before I write them down I think! I am like a rollercoaster lately of emotions and it's killin' me! I mean yesterday I felt exactly the way I said I did in the morning, but by afternoon I was much better - maybe because of prayer. But I maybe should have waited to to vent until later, when I was more at ease instead of so glum.

Don't you feel sorry for my hubby!!

Anyway, I prayed alot yesterday and last night, and I think I'm getting myself undercontrol, reigning in those fiery horses of hormones, and trying to tap in to ME! Who is that anyway? For so long I have been the "pregnant girl"..."oh look, she's pregnant again"....You have a one year old, when are you due again??"

I'm almost there though, almost will have myself back! But for now, I am going to enjoy the last baby brewing in my uterus, and please forgive the rollercoaster of emotions!! Although, I'm trying to stay more centered!!! Have a wonderful day! Babies are being born!!

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Miss said…
oh man dont I understand that one!=) soon my friend..soon!
April 30, 2008 at 4:35 PM
Anonymous said…
Ummm...I'm not even pregnant and I feel like I can have some REALLY wacky emotional rollercoasters. What will happen to me when I get pregnant? One can only imagine!
April 30, 2008 at 8:40 PM
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