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Taking off the backpack

Get rid of all bitterness and anger.

That's tough, since I have been caring this around for a while. A huge backpack of resentment, insecurity, misunderstandings, hurt, pain, and inadequacy has been riding on my shoulders as I carry this pack of pain and unforgiveness around.

As I read Ephesians 4:31, I try to drink in these words.

Get rid of all forms of malice.

One arm comes out from underneath the weight of the backpack I am carrying. No one else can see it, but I can feel it.

I never used to consider myself mean, or to be hurt by others easily, but in the last year, I feel both of these things alot. Sometimes I myself have been apalled of the things I have thought of others, or have been hurt by a misunderstanding of another. So I started secluding myself more by not blogging and by cutting myself off socially with people. I thought this would protect me. Instead, it gave an open door to Satan to step inside and cultivate more of these negative feelings.

And as I started to realize this, I realize I had to let go of the hurt caused by others, resentments toward life, and start to let in joy.

I am not perfect.

Thank God he understands! And as long as God loves me, and knows my sin and my heart. I need to be ok with how others may "see" me, hurt me, or treat me. As long as I am true to Him, and to myself.

My other arm slowly sneaks out from underneath the other side of the weight of the back pack I am carrying....

Feels good to be free.

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Anonymous said…
You're such a good writer Meg! And I really love this post...truer words were never spoken. Thanks friend.

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