Well, I still miss my kids horribly. Especially this morning when I heard that Shelby was up alot during the night. She has not been up in the middle of the night in 3 weeks, and it made me feel guilty for leaving her. I felt and feel, like I should be home with them. I know the woman who is watching them, that if she hears even the slightest little peep out of the kids would go rushing in to their room. I really don't want Shelby to get used to someone picking her up in the middle of the night for little rustles and sighs.
But maybe I am just anxious, and maybe it is not really that big of a deal. Maybe I should just enjoy my time with my thoughts, my books and my husband. But honestly, I am anxious because I feel like the can't live with out me (don't laugh, besides I know it's over dramatic:)), I haven't even attempted to pick up one of my books, and my husband is driving me nuts because it does not bother him one bit that we are 3 hours away from our little bundles!! And when I'm alone, which I thought I would just totally love and soak up, all I can think about is holding my children, breathing them in, and feeling totally busy. Weird? Yes.
It's strange because when you are super busy with the kids and life, all you can think about is how nice it would be to get away for a little while, to be with your thoughts and hobbies you used to enjoy doing, by yourself. But now that I am by myself, all I want is to be with my kids!!!!!!
Anyway, do others feel similar thoughts or experiences??
Crazy.
But now I am going to go and try and enjoy myself once more...on day number two in Walker, MN.
But maybe I am just anxious, and maybe it is not really that big of a deal. Maybe I should just enjoy my time with my thoughts, my books and my husband. But honestly, I am anxious because I feel like the can't live with out me (don't laugh, besides I know it's over dramatic:)), I haven't even attempted to pick up one of my books, and my husband is driving me nuts because it does not bother him one bit that we are 3 hours away from our little bundles!! And when I'm alone, which I thought I would just totally love and soak up, all I can think about is holding my children, breathing them in, and feeling totally busy. Weird? Yes.
It's strange because when you are super busy with the kids and life, all you can think about is how nice it would be to get away for a little while, to be with your thoughts and hobbies you used to enjoy doing, by yourself. But now that I am by myself, all I want is to be with my kids!!!!!!
Anyway, do others feel similar thoughts or experiences??
Crazy.
But now I am going to go and try and enjoy myself once more...on day number two in Walker, MN.
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